Growing up, I learnt to be kind,
but not to my body, not to my mind
"be kind to your family, be kind to your peers"
but inward kindness fell on deaf ear
a vast body, of flesh, skin and swerves
nothing like what I saw, what I dreamed of, or heard
"push harder, eat less, don't you want to be thin?"
thin is good, thin is sexy, thin fits in
another lie sold on top of another lie
this time will be different, this time i'll try
harder, I mean it, surely i don't miss
the grainy, sweet pleasure, of sugary doughnut lips